Independence.

I woke up in your bed
alone.
I don't remember falling asleep
and I don't remember you leaving
and I don't remember which came after the other.
I just laid there
eyes open
smelling you
and it made me sick.
The absence of heat next to me shows
I've been alone for a while.
I looked to the clock-
you won't be back.
At least not anytime soon.
I felt unsettled
and I felt panicked.
I needed to get out of here.
I wanted to get out of those cold sheets
and out of that cold room.
The cold air made me feel nauseated.
I turned the the icy door handle
and let the door slam behind me
with a deafening thud.
I walked away,
smiling.
I didn't need you to keep me warm.
I didn't need you.
I don't need you.