Evening Mind Meanderings.

You seem to run in and out of my mind like the ebb and flow of the tide.
At least the water is more tangible.

Independence.

I woke up in your bed
alone.
I don't remember falling asleep
and I don't remember you leaving
and I don't remember which came after the other.
I just laid there
eyes open
smelling you
and it made me sick.
The absence of heat next to me shows
I've been alone for a while.
I looked to the clock-
you won't be back.
At least not anytime soon.
I felt unsettled
and I felt panicked.
I needed to get out of here.
I wanted to get out of those cold sheets
and out of that cold room.
The cold air made me feel nauseated.
I turned the the icy door handle
and let the door slam behind me
with a deafening thud.
I walked away,
smiling.
I didn't need you to keep me warm.
I didn't need you.
I don't need you.

Tide.

I brace myself against the raging waters,
as the ebb and flow push and pull at my feet
struggle after struggle, my body grows weary from fighting
it is time for me to give in
I offer my body as a sacrifice to the tugging tide,
and let myself fall in lethargy
as waves drift me into the other worlds of the unknown.